Rain

   The sky grew continuously darker and large clouds formed in the sky.  The world began to dim – the light that had been present that morning forsaking the sky and earth as though it feared the approaching storm.  And just as quickly as the light had faded, so did the rain begin.  It did not come in torrents as the imposing clouds had implied, but instead a slow drizzle met the earth as it bid the sky farewell.  The strong scent of rain was present in the air, as it had been earlier, even as the clouds came into view.  As the clouds rolled by, the sky where they had once been was left clear once more and a small portion of the former brightness returned.  The callous winds blew the rain in multiple directions as the speed and amount of rain increased.  Even a nearby flag seemed indecisive about which way to wave, and within the course of a minute had changed from one direction to its complete opposite and back again.  At times it would go limp, hanging still, until the wind, with all its oddities, forced it to begin once more its conflicted waving.  For a moment, lightning split the sky, and although the bolt itself was not visible, its light stretched in a line across the entire horizon in the west and thunder rumbled in the distance.

4-4-11

Incomplete

When every page I write is stained with tears,

When each moment that passes is filled with fears,

I miss You more, why aren’t You here?

Will You ever again fill my life?

Will I ever be rid of all this strife?

I want You to remove from my heart this knife.

I placed it there when I walked away.

Oh, my God, why didn’t I stay?

No matter what, I always stray.

You were my all, my life, my hope,

So tie me to You with the strongest rope –

For I no longer have the ability to cope.

Am I too far beyond Your reach?

I beg You, please, take away this breach!

How many times must You I beseech?

But whose fault is this, after all?

Who is it who built up these many walls?

When I realize the answer, to my knees I fall.

I recognize that I’m to blame,

For playing a very dangerous game

And abandoning Your precious name.

When will I realize You’re waiting for me?

You never left; oh, when will I see

That You’re waiting here to make me free?