Love Perfected

     For lack of anything better to post, I'm going to put on another poem I wrote a while ago!  Because I don't want to just stop writing anything on here, like I did before. At least this is something.
     I wrote this one, again, in November, 2010. I called it Love Perfected because of the theme throughout of God's perfect love, and how hard it is sometimes to realize that His really is a perfect love. Love in our world is so imperfect, often broken, untrue. But God took what we fail at and perfected it.  He perfected love.

Love Perfected

When my world falls apart,
Yours holds together.
Your world is not my world -
They are different from each other.
In my world I am alone,
Away from You.
In Yours is only love,
And You want me there too.

You want us to unite,
But instead I choose to fight.
Because the love You offer confuses me.
How could I be loved so perfectly?

There is no perfect love,
But Yours seems so close to that.
You died so I could live -
I can't understand that.
This is perfect love.
It's found in You alone - You are the only way.
And although I've chosen life,
It seems I die every day.

If only I would trust You.
But I don't truly trust You.
I know it's my decision,
But I fear I face collision.

I know I cannot truly see
All Your love has done for me.
This perfect love, how could it be
That you would pour it out on me?
I proclaim to follow You,
I'm not embarrassed of Your truth.
And yet somehow it seems so unreal.
Oh, God, teach me how to feel!

I only hold pieces of my life,
The rest I give to You.
I hold these pieces back,
But I know You want them too.
Why won't I give them up,
And let go of this control?
Because I have been hurt,
But You could make me whole.

I must die to my life,
Live only through Your life.
I want to learn to trust You.
I want to give it all to You.

Teach me how to give.
Teach me how to live.
Teach me how to die.
Make me whole inside.